Kinda sianz of studying liaoz.... but still it's only the beginning. The tougher chimmer topics are up ahead. 2 days left to pia. Was listening to the radio and noting what songs were on. Funny thing was I don't have any of them. Guess my pool of mp3s not extensive enough...

Anyway, the chinese have this belief that if a moth comes to visit you, someone close to you who has died has come to see you. I got that a lot at home when I was young, and my mum and grandma would say grandpa has come to see how the home was. Always believed in it a little bit.

The same thing happened today. A few days back, 2 weeks after my great grandma passed away, a moth appeared at my door and stayed the whole night. Tonight, I saw a similar moth in my room, near the ceiling. Just as I'm about to get new notes to study, it flew to the notice board. Guess where it landed - right on the lyrics of the song that my aunts, uncles, cousins and I sang in her service. It brought a chill down my spine, but I knew there was nothing to be afraid of.

Time to continue studying...

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How's everyone's exams? Mine ends on Wed. 3 papers done liao, left 2 more, next one on Sat. So far ah, taken a few losses already, now just praying for reinforcements to come and tahan a bit more loh.

First paper, Biostats. You go in knowing you can't finish the paper liao. So it's just grabbing as much marks as u can. You come out asking how many qns u didn't do, not "aiyah I couldn't finish the paper". Now praying the bell curve shift to ur advantage.

2nd paper, Remote sensing. Open book. Satellite image of my friend's hometown came out. Wasted, should have asked him all about his hometown when he came into my room to talk cock the night before. If like dat sure score liao, just hope to get B+.

3rd paper, Changing Landscape of S'pore. Should have read the bloody textbook, which I didn't have time. Wrote non-stop for 2 hours until hand cramp and words started slurring. Remind me never to take S'pore modules again, they always talk about HDB flats.

So far, it look like a C, B+ and another C.

This is Shiqin reporting from the war front.

Roger and out...

The first thing the seniors tell u is... "That module ah, you won't finish the paper one."

It came down to how much you can salvage rather than how much you can score.

Imagine walking into the exam hall thinking like that. Who in the right frame of mind would? I would. Most did.

And when we came out, the first question is,"How many questions did u not do?" Oh well, it'll come down to how well everyone did for the first few questions. Those smart enough will start from the back and tip the bell curve as usual.

But it's over!!! Time to move on to better regular modules...

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Saw her today in the most unlikely of places... Could feel a moral boost. Just when u need it in study period.
Back to books...

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Active by night, hit the bed by day. When the sun rises, I shall take my rest. When the sun sets, I come out to hunt.

When no lah, just that it's time to go full time studying, and it's best done at night. Sighz... Today's test was like the worse I've taken in the past 2 sems. Thoughts of the Chem tests came back. Felt the same feeling of just dunno how to answer cos you have no idea what it's asking. Anyway, pray for the best loh... can't get a C this sem.

Still got one more project to do. Been reading html a lot. Think at this rate I think I'll speak like one. No wonder computer geeks are weirdos, they think, speak and read like a computer. Anyway, it has really pushed my knowledge on html, which I had always wanted to work on. But now there's only like 3 days to do that.
Back to the project.

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It's good that life still goes on. But somehow, there's a hollow feeling inside. Maybe the departure was gradual and not sudden, and so I do not feel it's impact.

Been cramming for a test, no time as usual, just like the previous one. Word has it it's gonna be harder. Gotta catch some sleep for now, but then it's back to the books, or notes, again. Then again, all the work has put my mind off it right now. Tomorrow will be 7 days, we'll wait and see.

I've forgot to mention this all the time, but the recent attendance of morning lectures is not only to go and pay attention in class, but also looking forward to seeing someone. If not for her, I wouldn't have the urge to wake up so early to have breakfast in the first place.

Back to the top, back to that Sunday. My sisters, cousins, uncles and aunties and myself had put a song together to sing for her as she left. It's something simple, but meaningful. Here it goes...

It only takes a spark to get a fire going.
And soon all those around, can warm up in it's glowing.
That's how it is with Ah Mah's love,
Once you've experienced it, you spread her love to everyone;
You want to pass it on.

I wish for you my friend, this happiness that she's found.
You can depend on Him, it matters not where you're bound.
I'll shout it from the mountain top
I want the world to know, that God's love has come to her,
She wants to pass it on.
She wants to pass it on.

She'll be remembered in the stars soon...

I walked the Land of the Dead,
of green fields, blue sky and tombstones.

There was pain and sorrow,
Sadness beyond words.

Know that they've come to pass,
and moved on to a better place.

Thinking of them as they were,
Of chances missed and moments treasured.
They gave me strength, joy and hope.
Through their life's journey, I've learn and learnt.

My timing's are totally screwed... I'm now officially wide awake at night, and sleep soundly in the day. I only see a few hours of sunlight, if it allows, hehe. Today was odd, but work was still done. Tried and experimented a few things with a website today, learnt a few new tricks too. The revamp I wanted should be coming...

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Kinda bored right now. No wait, it's got things to do but just not doing it. Feel like taking a break, but there's no time for any.

Please remind me to watch my webcast or work on my proj. Cos....
If u can watch 1 hr of a show, u could have covered half a lecture of a webcast.
If u can watch a movie, u could have covered a lecture altogether.

Been surfing around my friends' blogs lately. New ones especially. One of which was a friend in Canada in exchange now. She claims it's boring there, but from the photos I see, she seems to having fun. And the food she cooks look damn delicious. Can't wait to go SEP myself. Another is a friend doing interior designing right now, and he showcased his work in his blog. But as of now, I lost his address. Gotta get it from him again.

As for today, spent the night compiling results for my project. There's still a long way to go. Gotta start on the website soon, which leads to me trying a bid to resurrect my website too. Since I'm on this, might wanna take up a few more responsibilities along the way. Hmmm... will think about it.

Met up with my secondary school friends for lunch today. They're one of the closest friends I have around. Ate at Fish n Co. at Parkway Parade. Been a long time since I went Parkway. And meeting up with them in our old hangout was really reminisce of the good old days. We talked a lot, and caught up with what we were doing and what our old classmates were doing. Many have gone through a shocking radical change which I shan't mention here, but I'm still the same old person. Amazing how time really flies.

Gonna stay up for now to catch Liverpool play. Maybe sneak in a webcast or do MSA on those stupid proteins.

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