7 days and counting, including this one.

The final battle lies ahead.
The final steps are always the hardest.
Temptation is everywhere.
Men were lost in countless battle up to this.
The strong now remain.
To build up the fort again,
to hold the becoming seige.

The wonders of astronomy...

All the cramming, all the nua-ing, all the sleeping, all the suppers...
It has come to this. I shan't say much, I myself gotta catch some sleep, say my final prayers and enter the gas chamber tomorrow morning. If you don't die of the cold, or the heat, the paper will finish you off. If you're still not dead, that stupid question which you thought wasn't important or didn't bother read up will come to haunt you until you go crazy and end up in Woddbridge.
You can bring the whole library in, but the library can't fit the exam hall.

Ok, crapping too much. All the best everyone. Remember, we suffer so much to have a better future. Or think of it this way, it's the last time you're gonna see these notes, may as well take a long good last look before you burn n drink them.

Tomorrow, Darwin's theory will stand strong.

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Can't believe there so many astro bloggers out there. Guess there goes my nights.

Can u see it?


They say there's a picture of Mary on the wall. You can't blame them, can you?

Testing if pictures work here. I'll be great tht they do. A new aspect in blogging.

Well, for me that is.

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I've been studying non-stop since last week. After the 2 tests last thurs, it was non-stop pumping information into my head, until now. Somehow, there's this limit and I've hit it. Studying anymore just wouldn't work. Guess I'll have to let some of it to digest a bit and then it's back the books again.

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*5.30am 20th APR
I seriously need help. I'm like sleeping at weird hours for almost a week. And at this time now, I can't sleep again. I wonder what will happen on my exam morning itself. It's been 2 days that I have slept pass lunch, can't believe it.

Same time again. Can't sleep again. Better start switching back to normal sleeping hours or all the studying I'm doing won't help if I'm sleeping during the exams. It's good I can't sleep which I can really study without dozing off, but then again, I end up sleeping during the day. That can't happen on exams days, it's like the worst case senario you can think of.

Read some of my friends blogs, quoting a few things to ponder over:
Prof: I went to see my neurosurgeon yesterday
Me: For?
Prof: Just a checkup.
Me: So what did he say?
Prof: He says that both side of my brain are faulty.
Me: ????
Prof: He told me that my right brain has nothing left in it, while my left brain has nothing right in it.
Me: (-_-)"'

Ask yourself what is your purpose in life?
What would it take to make you happy...

Speaking of which, just found out that someone is also reading my blog. After sourcing around for a while, that person has a blog which started way longer than mine. And you write much better, kudos to you. Will be contacting that person soon...

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It's 5am and I'm still fully awake. Tried to sleep early for once but I can't. I was tossing n turning about. Now I'm here blabbering again. Nothing much today, actually don't feel like talking about anything although there are things I'd like to mention. But I'll save it for another day. Time to tire myself so that I can hit the bed.

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Been really some time since I pen my thoughts here. What's been happening?
let's start with the 2 test marathon, the Liverpool Juve match, finally finish sch and now it's pure studying. An old friend finally updated the gang with what's happening. And a few points that really stood out glaring at me. The issue of christianity and evolution and how people can psycho you to become one of them. Which leads to my own personal opinions of these people how my past experience tells me something bad will happen, or more how something I dun want to happen might happen. Turning fully nocturnal and switch in sleeping hours. Pros n cons. Holiday plans and financial crisis i'm facing or will face in front of me. Back to studying and how it's really time to hit the books after last sem's performance.

WOW. Guess it's a lot of thoughts. Looking at it, think I'll leave it this way for now. Will return to elaborate.

Been seeing and hearing a lot things lately. It's been making my perceptions change, from good to bad. It isn't good, neither is it bad. In the end, I'll have to live with it, no matter what happens.
However, it's only a small part of my life. There are bigger things, better things that I can look forward to. And it's always assuring that you can fall back on old friends and memories to cheer you up. Knowing that they were always there all along.
It's always in times of greatest need that they appear.

THIS IS HOW IT SOUNDS LIKE WHEN THE DOVES CRY

Check out this MTV. Instant classic!

This kind of things really make you lovesick and wanna fall in love all over again...

Added a few links today. Check them out.
If you want your link put up or removed, let me know. I'll make the neccessary changes.

Again, please click on the ads. Traffic seems to have slowed down.
Also surprised to see that more than 1000 visitors have been here since the counter started this year. You people are simply amazing! I'd never knew my site would ever hit 1k, but it did. So keep it up. I myself will try to blog to everyday.

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Reading more blogs again... saw these...

From BadAstro Blog:
“We humans seem to be extremely good at generating ideas, theories and explanations that have the ring of plausibility. We may be relatively deficient, however, in evaluating and testing our ideas once they are formed.”
To that he is exactly right. We can always come up with an explanation ( “It was astrology! Planet X! Sunspots! Telekinesis! Homeopathy!” ) for some event, but as humans we’re pretty poor, maybe even lazy, about explaining our explanations to ourselves.

I would have to agree. Sometimes we can come up with crazy ideas as to reason out things that we can't understand. Basically in short, this is how rumours come about.

From my friend's blog...
that's the way love is... realistic love anyways... it's usually one person puts themselves out there.. knowing that the other person may/may not be feeling the same way, hoping that if they do, they'll show it, and if they don't, they'll grow to feel that way about you. N it sucks to be at the giving end, becoz it seems quite unrewarding, but then you don't know if it is or if it's just you who's thinknig that it is. becoz that reward could be right around the corner. And the real pain of it is... just not knowing~ L Z

In truth, sometimes some people want to do it this way, so that it won't feel like the person is coming onto the person too strongly. There's always the fear of scaring that person away. The way I see it, if you want it, go get it. Don't wait by the sidelines hoping that the person will drop by. It doesn't work anymore. I've seen it happen.
Easier said than done? I would agree. Only do this when u reach the 'you don't know if it is or if it's just you who's thinking that it is'. That means she's alright with you = you've won half the battle.
A few advice taken from friends (hope I get their meanings right):
1. Usually in S'pore context, once a gal knows someone is going after her, and is in the considering stage, other guys would usually give up. A good analogy would be bidding for modules. Once you place the bid, other people would just move on and see if other modules can be bidded rather than waste points on this module.
2. Always recce. Make friends with her friends. Of course, get into their good books, even if it means treating them meals and bringing them shopping. (haha, kidding) But really, if they feel positive towards you, your market value will increase in Her point of view. Besides that, you can find out more about her through her friends too, which can help you win her heart. Speaking of which, knowing too much can also kill you chances. It'll be like stalking.
3. Another friend of mine told me about pace too. He would apply what I call 'fast n furious'. That means winning her heart in the shortest possible time. Seen it work before, but it comes down to 'coming onto the person too strongly'. So it depends on character. Some people can be frightened and run away. Recent examples can prove that(that was extreme). I used to recommend the slow and steady approach, which was to give her time to think can consider. Now, it would be best to up the speed a bit. That way, rejection wouldn't be considered. Well, times have changed, strategies have to be updated.

From my personal point of view, don't drag an issue too long, or you'll end up one step behind. Quote from a senior, 'Pace yourself. Pacing is very important'.
I shall open this issue to my readers whom I believe have much to say about this. Hope they can give their 2 cents worth.
As for guys, I'm not sure if this can be applied. In short, they can be picky, but can't resist something that ends up at their doorstep.

PANDORA'S BOX OPENS

If there was a penny for each of my thoughts, I would be rich. Haha... but it's not the point. I'm going back to bad habits again. Been trying to start studying early, but now realise I'm starting to play my old games too. Not only that, when I'm stuck at something, I make sure I get it solved or I will never do anything else until the problem is solved. Happened today, when I couldn't settle my assignment, I just couldn't feel like doing anything else. I was just lazing around my room the whole evening and afternoon. Haven't even flip a page of my notes. Thankfully, there are still kind souls around to save the day, thus I'm writing this to thank that person for lifting this thing off my shoulder and that my night could go on in smoothly.

Back to study mood liao.

Before I leave the cyberworld and hit book-land, just too sum up a few things that came across my mind today.
Started this morning with a 8am lecture. Was late as usual, made my grand entrance from the top of the LT with my slippers slapping the steps. I couldn't wake up today, until my frens knocked on the door did I really wake up. Wanted to jio them for breakfast the night before, but all was offline. I thought this was it, and the possibility of waking was near impossible, even though I told myself last lecture must go.
Reaching the LT, I was surprised so many turned up. Maybe because it's on the fate of the Universe that everyone is concerned about.
Anyway, finally finished the syllabus. Quite glad it's ended. On to focus other modules. Slept through lunch, woke up and got ready for my 4pm lect. Actually I went because I wanted to ask my friends how to do assignment rather than listen to lecture because the lecture is talking about level 2000 module already. I would be listening to it in future anyway so just saw the slides, but didn't comprehen what he said.
Back in Hall, was basically just bumming around. Took a shower then finally felt more awake. Was thinking back some of the events that happened lately. Was it jealousy? What is jealousy?

Is it the anger when there is no need for one?
Is it the bitterness behind the throat in everything you eat?

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Kinda interesting reading ppl's blogs. Really opens up your mind.

Here's a few things I spotted.

1. machiavellian
new word learnt from biz comm readings: using clever plans to achieve what you want without people realising what you want.
- Hmm, exectly what I've always wanted to say but couldn't find the word.

2. Noticed that people have been quite down lately or basically not as cheerful as before. Maybe it's the exams coming that makes every problem blow outta proportion and emotions can exaggerated. But all in all, cheer up folks, the end is near. This where our strength is needed the most. This is not the time to say I can't take it anymore and I wanna opt out. This is where you take on the challenges and clear the obstacles aside. And if you wanna do something, DO IT!

3. Read a fren's blog. Haven't read it for some time, was catching up on some of the entries posted. Really missed the person very much. The departure had changed everything. I had to rethink some things, but still be resolute. A friend of mine recently just emphasized to me to be resolute and not sway to current circumstances. Kinda wondered how things would have been if this friends was still around.

That's all for now, heading for supper and then hopefully can study.

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Kinda just realised that, it was after one of my projects that I went into this down period. But I more or less knew this would happened. The past can be buried, but never forgotten.
Could sense it's come and gone, things have been clarified. Finally could sit down and really study for the first time. Couldn't really believe when I woke up today and the next thing I did was open my powerpoint slides to study. Feels like a milestone to me.
Should start working in that direction, get out of the hell hole I dug myself in the beginning.

Gotta keep to my schedule.... ciaoz....

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I've been hearing a lot of stuff about me going around. And it's all wrong, some of which I never even uttered before. Things like becoming block head are rubbish, I never even said it before. I've only said I might be vice blk head, but never blk head. Some people just don't clean their ears.
Besides that, yes, I've been feeling down a bit. I'll say a bit here and will never mention it ever again. It was during supper and not dinner. I had a meeting. But the meeting was different. I could feel something was wrong. Very wrong. Remember I said I knew this day would come, this time it had come again. It was like your worst case senario unfolding in front of you. God have mercy on us all.
Anyway, I've trashed it out already, so I'm feeling much better. The hours after that was the worst for me.

So, please don't pursue the matter anymore. It'll only make me remember it. I've already picked myself up and moved on, what's done is done, don't stay and ponder over it. I've already spent a day grieving over it, then took a deep breath and said, "The show must go on. The game ends only when the final whistle is blown."
And thanks for all your concern, I'm fine now.

Nothing much happened today, except that I woke up at 1pm today, missed all my morning lectures. Saw the blk E production, was impressive. Reflected on our own would-be-production and how it wasn't made. Gonna start studying after this and reading some blogs.

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Still feeling down, although the Liverpool win surely did lift my feelings up a bit. Reality just hit me today that there's only 2 weeks left to study before my first exam comes. Guess I should be beginning to start sleeping and studying only.
Feel like writing something but yet don't feel like blabbering on.

Why can't she see it?
All the things I've done.
Why can't she realise?
It was there all along.
How long has it been?
It's been half a year.....

Before this, I always felt disappointed was something I will never really understand as I always look on the positive side of things and had faith that things would somehow turn your way in the end. But now, after last night, I left the comm hall feeling so disappointed, it was like losing the battle before the battle even started. I could literally just collapse onto the floor, losing all the support in my bones, feeling like there's nothing more I could do. I felt totally powerless for the first time, like all the life energy in your body was sucked dry and you could only just barely breathe to stay alive.

Moving on, I've been trying to finish tying all my lose ends before the exams come. Thus taking time away from my blog. A lot has happened, a lot more will. So for now, I'll just put everything in brief.

It started with Hall application, and the points issue. My friend had questioned me about joining comms and the purpose of it all. And of course what I would be joining next sem. I'm still confused and uncertain, as my studies are being affected. Which leads to the next issue, about how I had lost my touch and I'm just meeting the passing grade and not pursing the best of my ability. I know I can do that, but I have not the energy or vigor anymore. I have to find that back soon. Running the final lap is always hard, that's where the mental strength comes in.

Another friend of mine also what happened to the love story I was writing. Well, being so busy that I am, I have started losing interest or time on it already. I just feel that there are other more important commitments in my life right now than to ponder like a love sick dog on it. It's time to move on, and I've learnt that if you want it, don't wait, just do it.

Well, that was about a week ago. Now with the hall application results out, things have changed. Now, I'm considering changing rooms. Should I move up? Stay the same floor? How about my friends? Staying in the holidays? Or leave altogether?

Being weary as I am, I'm thinking of dropping everything and going home to have good proper rest. To have proper time to study and sleep right. It's all so tempting, with all the negative aspects showing in front me. The only time where it reminded me how fun and exciting Hall is is when we 'ponded' other blocks. It was totally what we're made of, and what we can pull off. However, other than that, I've seen things that I already had enough of. That staying here would only torment me even more. Tolerance can only go so far. I have gone that extra distance, now it's time to stop. I could see myself breaking very soon. And I can't imagine what I would become. If it ever happens, remind myself to hold me down.

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Finally finished one of my long projects. Had left it on the shelf for like eons, finally took it up to finish it. The last part was the most tedious, emotional and weary. But to end it, it would need me to go that extra mile. And I did it.

Too tired to type any more. I had just typed like 8k words in one week. Need some rest for now.

If you didn't get the clue the last time. Try this one on top of the previous one.
The Sky was filled with Stars.

I had left an earlier clue. To put it bluntly, it was to explore my links.

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Looking at a long night ahead, better start now or never. To update this is on the list, although I won't get to it tonight. But I will soon enough.

A quick run through for the past few days. Saw The Eye 10, wasn't really scary. Saw Howl's Moving Castle, classic Jap anime from the same people that brought you Spirited Away. Just gives you this feel good feeling that you can't describe.
Had 2 test on Thur, then a quiz on Fri. The tests basically proved how much I was lagging. The quiz was weird. It was MCQ, but it had questions with more than one answer, so it meant that you had to shade more than one option. Then there wasn't negative marking, which for a moment meant if you shade everything, you would get full marks right? Wrong. Eg, if the answer is A and B, but you shade B and C, you get zero marks cause your wrong answer would negate your right answer. Blur right? I think it's a stupid idea. The lecturer even said they've been doing this like forever. Wondered how this thing endured.

THE STORY SO FAR...

Almost finishing my projects. Will come back here soon, really been neglecting this lately. Aiyoh....

Wonder what project it is? Check out the links.

Here's a clue: Christine Left Iceland, Came Kazakstan, Packed Ice Cream.

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