This is worse than being in the army. If not for lesson last sem, there was swimming training. Ok, it helps to exercise and all, but I'd like to wake up for once not bothering to do anything for the day. Or maybe wake up looking forward to a day out in town rather than stuck in school. Soon my boy, soon my boy, that day will come...

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Nothing much happens. I go tutorials, sleep, eat lunch, sleep, go lessons, eat dinner, attend to hall stuff, then sleep again. Oh before I forget, I getting pissed with these PRC ppl. They simply cannot make it. Their english sucks to the core. I spend as much energy in 1 hour of swim training trying to listen to and understand them. Oh why did I end up with these kinda ppl.

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This is really what I call a twist of fate. Just when I start missing her, just when I want to see her again, just when the stress is getting too much and I'm about to break. There she was, walking towards me, as beautiful as ever. My heart still stopped a beat, but it felt calmer. I held my breadth for that moment.
She wasn't walking to me, but to her friend. I was with another friend. Wanted to go over to say hi but decided not to. She was busy talking, so was I. Having a chance to see her was all I needed, it was all I asked for.
Now got momentum to move on...


I look for her everytime I see the night sky.
Hoping to catch even a small glimpse.
And that would ease my heart.
Now fate was kind to me,
to catch a sight of her.
Giving me the will the fight on,
when all will was lost.

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I can feel it coming, and all hell shall break loose. Then my demons shall run free...

A few days back, I was letting my mind wander before the lecture started. Looking at all the ppl coming into the LT, I started thinking back, the feelings I had back then and now and everything in between. Then this song came to my mind, cos I started to mumble the first line. This was how it goes...

I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you
and need you by my side

I'm still mad about you
all I ever wanted was you
your still the one
your still the one

Maybe she is, maybe she isn't...

Nothing much to rattle here, same old same old. A few things coming up, so watch out for it...

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0350 am
Barely got time for myself till now. Was just reflecting on some stuff, some of which I wrote but never showed. Here goes...

"I believe there’s a hero in all of us.
Gives us strength, makes us noble.
Even though sometimes we have to give up the thing we want the most."
-This was from the Spiderman 2. The movie was good. Back to reality, I thought about this when I wanted to make a move. And it was this quote that stopped me. Sometimes still wonder what would happen otherwise. It's true sometimes sacrifices have to made.


"I get lost in your eyes whenever I’m with you.
I lost my sense of direction every time you walk pass by.
My heart skips a beat whenever you speak.
And when you touch you hair,
It makes my day,

All the more to make me say,
I love you more each and every day.

My heart calms down when I see you smile
When u call my name your soft voice rings through my head
Seeing you walk by makes my heart skip a beat.
That’s how crazy I am in love with you."
-An instant classic, really thought about it the whole day to write this. Must have penned it during lecture. Reading it again, I think I felt that way sometimes, but not now.

All that feeling is lost, never to be rekindled again. Sad isn't it. But we always try to find something positive out of something. So don't despair, it's not the end of the world. The Sun will rise and set. Time to hit the bed...

Testing testing speed...

Finally got it right. Took me like an hour to settle it. The tag board and counter is up. But the first 35 hits are mine. Took me that much testing to get the tag up. I thought there was some code problem, but after a few tries, I realised it's actually too wide and got shifted down to the bottom, which was why it disappeared in the beginning. How dumb of me. Anyway, it's up!!
Starting tagging ppl...

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So many things to do. Oh so many. Guess it's one thing at a time. This blog is one of them.Had a few comments, but I'm trying to work on it, just that I can't find the right time to do something about it. Don't worry, I will get to it. It's just a matter of time.

YOU CANNOT OUTRUN TIME

(minutes later...)
Sianz man, the work is really piling up. Every time I see my desk, I just feel like not doing anything, but when I walk away, there's this thing that tells me to go back and sort the whole bloody thing. Somehow, maybe it's being tired, maybe it's the low morale, if any. Or maybe it's just that things aren't going my way. Somehow, everything is falling apart, and one man can't hold everything together. I shan't waste time here anymore, gotta go make changes in my life before things fall beyond repair.

Went to catch S'pore win the Tiger Cup today. Really brings back the good old days of the Malaysian League. Really a good break from all the work in school too. Found out that I really needed one. As I was saying, the stress is piling up, problems cropping up here n there. Sheesh, I haven't even started on my school work at this hour, and still settling hall stuff n all.

More to come.

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Things are coming fast and furious. It's when you reach breaking point but it's your will power that will hold you on. Once broken, there's no turning back. It's a test of how far u can go.
Anyway, listening to Linkin Park somehow just release that wee bit of anger and stress in me. It's lyrics are so easy to associate with, especially at times like this when the lyrics simply describe how I exactly feel. Go listen to it when you're stressed, you'll know what I mean.

Gotta continue with work. Sheesh, still working in the weekend. It's like some working adult who has to bring work home for the weekend to finish. When weekdays aren't enough, this is worse than school homework.

It's been a tiring week, and it's only week one. Already things are piling up and up, just like last sem. I'll end today with a song that describes something that got me really thinking the whole week. Though there's lots to think, this one thing really really got me thinking the hardest.

Phil Collins - A Groovy Kind Of Love
When I'm feeling blue, all I have to do
Is take a look at you, then I'm not so blue
When you're close to me, I can feel your heart beat
I can hear you breathing near my ear
Wouldn't you agree, baby you and me got a groovy kind of love

Anytime you want to you can turn me onto
Anything you want to, anytime at all
When I kiss your lips, ooh I start to shiver
Can't control the quivering inside
Wouldn't you agree, baby you and me got a groovy kind of love, oh

When I'm feeling blue, all I have to do
Is take a look at you, then I'm not so blue
When I'm in your arms, nothing seems to matter
My whole world could shatter, I don't care
Wouldn't you agree, baby you and me got a groovy kind of love

We got a groovy kind of love
We got a groovy kind of love, oh
We got a groovy kind of love

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Been 3 days straight of IHG cheering. My lungs gonna burst liao. At least bball went into the finals, so efforts not wasted. Just as I expected, it was like IBG, just much bigger and grander. Besides that, lectures have gone full swing. Time to print notes again. Astro's still hot behind my back as usual. It's called 'that time of the year again'.
All in all I'm happy cos everythings is still going smoothly and in control. Even got chance to catch extended ROTK dvd along the way. So it's good.
Glad that the comms still holding strong. SWOC has been up to standard cept for a few flaws which can be quickly resolved. Blk comm also standing tall with a good blk opening. Astro also still steady, with plans all on schedule.
Lastly, the good thing is I finally still got time for my studies and training too. Sneaking sleep here and there too.

Guess I can't spend too much time here for now. Got to go...

My mind is blank,
I can't write.
I've lost my inspiration,
in all this 'work'.
Too busy to think,
too busy to react,
only following through.

Creativity is running dry,
if I don't get enough rest.
I might not even make it through,
this sem's tests.

There's only two things now,
Hall and studies,
I'd told you before,
and I don't mind saying it again.
There's only two things now,
and nothing more.

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Super busy. There's SWOC, IHG, blk comm, astro comm, swimming training, school lectures, tutorials, relationships, friends, keeping my room in one piece, keeping my things in check, losing things, owing people money, people owing me money, distributing shirts, pushing sales, saving money to buy stuff....

When I said I'm gonna sell my soul and I'll get very busy, the frequency of posting goes to show that. There was training as usual, then Hall Opening was a big event with the President here, then after that was Homecoming with block opening followed by carnival. Busy but fun. Now it's on to other things. More are coming...

Well, things happen,
things come and go.
We'll never know,
what fate has dealt us,
But to accept it.

6 days I never post and it felt like I left this blog for months and for good. But I'm back, and back like I'm saying farewell. However, this is not the day.
6days...
Started with a rainy gloomy new year, spent a few days preparing SWOC treat. Took only a nite to trash things out. Then came blk comm and astro meeting, and more work followed. Then there's bidding of modules to cover and worry about.
In between all that, training as usual. Manage to make a resolution, been played a prank. Got totally pissed.
At this rate, Sheares Hall will soon see what I'm made of. Everywhere I go, its these people that try their luck and push me to the edge. I've the edge and what's over it. If they push me somemore, I might just walk there, because I've been there and as they always say - 'The grass is always greener on the other side.'

LET THIS BE A WARNING FOR IN FUTURE THERE'S NO TURNING BACK.

Another point to add is that I came to Sheares never wanting to see that edge ever again. Never did I expect to see it so soon and in such circumstances. Please do not force me to make decisions that no one wishes, for when it comes, regrets will be a plenty.