Such a rare occurrence to have Feb 29th, of course must post.

First off, another story, but not part of Little Mermaid.
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After some time I’ve finally made up my mind
She is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I’m searching everywhere to find her again
-25 Minutes, Michael Learns to Rock

"So can we....?" I asked those words after thinking about it for a long time.

"Well, I'm sorry, but there's someone else." She tried to sound nice and sorry at the same time when she said that. "You were my first choice, but you couldn't decide back then, and I understand."

"So there's no other way?"

"We can still see each other now and then...."
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So one door closes and another opens. But it was good, I needed some confirmation of some sort. It was nice tugging along and enjoying it all, but there was a time when I had to ask the blunt truth, and wipe away the nice facade.

So yeah, a gal rejected me. But she was my boss, and because I waited too long, the full time post she wanted to give me was gone. She intended to get 2 full timers this yr, and I was one of them. But 2 others also joined the company at the same time, and they had agreed to go full time while I hung on thinking.... She said she would gimme time to think, but of course I took too long. It was one of those casual conversations that she mentioned that the 2 had gone full time that I realised my position. So I asked more the next day we met. And so the story goes. She's still interested in starting astro programs with me though, but only when she's gonna expand again. And that I believe would be another year later. As usual, she said I would be her first choice when there's an opening. But that's what all bosses say. Still, I keep my fingers crossed.

And so, I've really become a perm-part-time. And yet, still unemployed. At least I now know I gotta go find a real job. But to get a job at your first interview and then rejected by it is kinda hard to take. Never imagined such a weird thing to happen, but hey, life makes it's twists and turns.

Funny thing was that just as I was about to blog this, another company finally contacted me, but I gotta write an essay first before being selected for an interview. Oh well, better than nothing lah.

So that was a few days back. As for the leap day today, quite uneventful actually. Attended a astro talk at NUS followed by stargazing. Caught up with frens in the astro circle. The day before I went to watch The Leap Years. Intended to watch it today, but yesterday was good enough.

The movie was quite nice. Good thing was that it had a local setting, making you feel closer to it. In a movie sense, it was so-so only, as the actors and actresses never looked natural with their perfect english and fluent cantonese the next scene. It just doesn't feel right. But it's the story that makes this movie special. Try to watch it as a how a romantic novel would unfold. Of course, watch it with someone special, like the gal who tried to ask him out on Feb 29th.

So yeah...that's all for now, busy downloading all the vids from Stage 6 after it announced it was shutting down on Feb 28. Still can dl though, but grab while u can.... Again, I'm outta space faster than I can I say "hey i think i need a bigger harddisk". Waiting for the next IT show to get one hopefully. And it depends on my pay for the month of Feb, if it comes through.

Oh well, to end things off, another vid for everyone. Lyrics are in it.



The music vid is here. Can't embed it in here as it's disabled.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sF84pIhP5UM

THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE

It's funny what your friends can say to you. So here are a few quotes, not exact ones, but those that I can still remember. And there's always words of wisdom from them. Disclaimer: Statements have been shorten or modified to bring message across.

On my job:

"You go full time lah. You like it so much, nevermind the pay not so good. You don't need the extra money anyway."

"You're the only one I've heard who actually enjoys your job."

On love:

"Y u never ask so-and-so ah. You always talk about her, but nothing happens."

"Eh you're only one staying in hall. We all attached liao except u. U sure hall dun have one u like?"

"You're the one who has most contact with gals, so u should have the largest resource pool. Dun be choosy lah."

"Eh, jio me for yoga class leh. I also wanna meet girls."

Words of wisdom:

"Next time go work liao, your circle of friends will start to shrink. How to find gal in future?"

"Don't shit in your own backyard."

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That's all I can think of for now. Feel free to fill more quotes thru the tagboard.

THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE

When I first heard this, the song stuck in my head for a week.


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Oh almost forgot the lyrics:

We watch the season pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart

Invitation only, grant farewells
Crush the best one, of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart

And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all, will sleep well

You have stolen
You have stolen my heart

I watch you spin around in the highest heels
You are the best one, of the best ones
We all look like we feel

You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart

Monday was always dull and depressing. So much so i couldn't sleep. Oh well, tomorrow will be a better day. And a better day it was to be.

Started well and wanted to get a pair of booties. But I think hitting the army market might be cheaper. Was going through the workplan for my fieldtrip and psyche-ing myself up for the whole thing. Always do this before the first trip every week. This time however, despite the hope to try to see everything, the first important step is to capture the kids attention. Win them over, the animals will come out to play. Setting up the right frame of mind is always important, that was what my senior instructor said. Boy I live by that now, cos it's really true.

So the kids were good today, I saw a lot of animals, they benefited a lot. Done coastal clean up that the weight combined was as heavy as a sumo wrestler. So it's positive all round. Seriously, a good day like this is hard to come by. Even the weather was nice.

Headed out in the evening with friends for a game at Minds Cafe. Nice to catch up with them, update on each other, what we're doing n stuff. Haven't done something like this for a long long time. Despite how tiring and long the day was, I was really full of energy and still ready to go. Guess the right company can really inspire me to be even more.

Well, more full days ahead. Gotta get better rest, dun wan to drain out halfway. Looking to a good week ahead.

THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE.

Believe in yourself.
Not in me, who believes in you.
Not in you, who believes in me.
Believe in yourself.
-Tengen Toppa Gueren Lagann

Was watching this anime and one of the characters drilled this into my head. Felt inspired by it and decided to share it. Good anime by the way. If you're interested, u can get from me.

I guess my previous post created quite a stir. But I will keep her identity a secret. Some might know, but I've lied a lot to keep her hidden. I hope it stays this way. And based on the ppl who read my blog (to the hundred silent fans out there), I guess she might have read it by now. If she doesn't, then it's fate.

Anyway, to satisfy all your curiosity, I just asked what she was doing tht night, and not asking her for dinner directly. That was y i said i should have asked her out instead. Guess I missed out this crucial point. But it gave everyone enough suspense for a first draft.

So a secret she will stay.

That aside, I've been watching my shows and movies lately. Sorting them out and trying to stop downloading stuff for a while as I watch the shows I download (for once) before burning them. My movie reviews are on my Facebook flixster profile. Go check it out.

That's when I'm not working, which is another thing that is starting to worry me. I guess there's so much more to being an adult. Still remember those times when I was young and can't wait to an adult. And grown-ups will tell you that your time will come. Yeah right, reality just hit me in the face.

So now the worry isn't the books, it's more than that. Now the money comes into the picture and ur family, ur future. It's like playing citadels and settlers combined. Oh well, you don't have all the time in the world, so live with it.

So maybe it's all the stuff going in my head that I've started to get sleepless nights. Also starting to fall a bit sick. And that's where this blog of mine came in and I decided to drop by. I guess just as I was stressed back in the army or in hall, writing something down before you head to bed is always a good way to end the day.

For today, I'll just sum up what's up and what's in store. Another Sat classifieds is waiting for me again, at the same time getting more involved in my part time job. This week should be an end all for me, where I won't sit on the fence anymore. The plan is set, just wait to see which side of the fence it will be. There's more to the decision than just money, it's the lifestyle that comes with it. Haiz....

More stuff also heading my way. Sheares is almost behind me, but a part of me will always yearn for it. Guess it's time to look forward and do the things I couldn't do in Sheares. I'll be taking up sailing and diving and seriously start doing bio and astro stuff. Kinda feel like being promoted from the Premiere League into the Champions League. Yupz, with the big guns now, that's why gotta up level.

Oh and my vday this year? Like any other year loh. Eat at home and watch movie. Had a plan, but didn't think it would work so didn't execute it. Saving it for later. There's another special day coming real soon. You guys should know it. (Don't think too much lah)

As I always tell my friends, if there's really something going on, I'll tell you in due time. Just that it hasn't even started at all. So dun get all excited ok? I dun wan to break all your hearts as well.
So stay tuned.

THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE

Vday 2007
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He didn't know how to phrase it. He was still latching onto his old reason that he needed to see her to settle some stuff. But as the day drew nearer, he was panicking inside but he never showed any emotion in front of his fellow neighbours.

He was thinking what to do, what to say, what was the next step.

They have been in contact on msn for quite a while now. Sometimes, they would go on in sms in the middle of the day. She was always slow to reply, and always said she was very busy.

Was she really busy, was she thinking how she should reply? He thought to himself. He shouldn't think too much he said. She should be very busy.

So it dragged to that fateful day....

Asking her out was the hardest thing to do. But when he did, she said she was going out for dinner with her girlfriends. He took a step back to give space and said nevermind. So he asked about the afternoon instead. She bought time by saying she can't confirm. And so he waited...

It was 2 more days to the D-day. And his msn popped up. She said she was going to school in the afternoon and that they could meet. His eyes saw a glimmer of hope, his heart was lifted. Still, time was his greatest enemy.

So they met that afternoon, among people & friends. Not the best of places, but he was happy to see her. Here, I got something for you he said. He didn't bring a bouquet of flowers, but flowers that he folded into a small bouquet. She was surprised and touched.

They chatted about stuff. He asked about dinner again. And she said the same thing. There were long pauses and interruptions, but the words just couldn't come out of his mouth. She looked at him, but he said he gotta go off for something else.

Before they parted, they wished each other Happy Valentine's Day.

As he lay in bed that night, he pondered what he should have said.

It could be just as simple as "Could you have with dinner with me instead?"

Haven't been blogging for quite a while. Just been busy n clearing n sorting stuff. By the time I got time to blog, it's usually after a long game of CZ or just wanting to spend time to catch up on shows that I downloaded.

Now that I've cleared the stuff before CNY and now that it's the 2nd day, could finally spend some time clearing stuff on friendster, adding frens and of course checking out this blog. It was then I realised my fren posted something on another blog. No wonder he sent me an sms. Haven't met him for a long time, but hey, it's was a nice update.

Looking forward, I'm, erm, still free on vday. Not really planning anything, cept for a movie marathon at my laptop. Yeah, vday is like next week.

Before we get to vday, how's everyone's CNY? Must be the usual i guess. Mine was same as before, except tht i invited a few frens from Hall this time round though. Counted the usual angbaos, meeting the same relatives, catching up with the usual questions.

And before CNY, besides all the clearing and cleaning my stuff that I've been telling ppl for like a month (I was really doing this for a month since I grad and moved back home), I was also job hunting (which I kept telling everyone as well) and signed up for Yoga class. Yup u heard me. No, I'm not stressed yet but hey there's no harm. So far only one replied to my resumes and email, which I'm doing as part-time at the moment. The boss did offer full-time though, but I'm still keeping my options open. But this one reply was kinda like my dream job.

Job description(my opening line for ppl): I bring kids to field trips. Trips to the beach, mangrove, etc and teach them about the wildlife there. At the same time, I also do CIP with them, ie, community service hours. Then I tell them about conservation and the environment. Each trip last an afternoon (1pm-5pm) and it's max 3 times a week on weekdays. How much I'm really paid? I'm not really sure actually. But during the interview my boss said 36/hr, which is good sh*t seriously. But hey, you don't get many ppl who can point to you something at the beach and start talking what animal it is ok...

So why does it fit my dream job? 1. I'm doing something related to my degree. Not many ppl do that nowadays. 2. I'm not stuck in the lab, and I get to go outdoors like all the time. 3. I get to impart my knowledge to the next generation, which I do for astro, so now it's biology. 4. The ppl like super friendly and eco-friendly, you can't find a better working environment than this.

So what's stopping you doing full time? Well, the full time pay doesn't sound nice. And if there's a lab job paying higher, I'm willing to tahan and do it for now, period. So since the rejection rate is getting higher, it's time to really send more resumes. Another indicator is that I just went back hall to eat dinner, which I once said, "If you come back and have hall dinner, it's really time to press the red button." So yeah, it's time to panic. But yeah, CNY's here and here I am blogging with all the time in the world.

As for the Yoga classes, I just went for my first lesson on CNY eve. There were like only 8 ppl, and I was the only guy. Think gotta get used to it. It was a basic yoga class, so it's mainly stretching and doing some basic yoga positions. Still, I broke out a sweat and some of my muscles were aching the next day. Signs of old age. But yeah, the first impression ppl give me is like, "you go to pick up girls is it?" I can't deny the ease of that, but hell you gotta look like a regular first and at least look semi-pro before trying to take these ppl who go like all the time.

But that's not the point. I do have ppl in mind but just can't decide at the moment. It's like holding a grenade but not knowing when to let the pin go and count the 3 seconds. I just can't seem to forsee when the end of that 3 seconds is. But just like a grenade, sometimes you just gotta throw it and hopes it explodes and hits the mark.

Btw, my movie reviews are now in my Facebook flixster app. SQuabble DaBble will be for a shows I dl (TV+Shows).