Just about 24 hours left to cram 7 chapters of organic chemistry. Just finish watching Liverpool draw against Blackburn. Decided to drink coffee to keep myself awake for the night. Really need to study.
Busy busy busy again, with hall stuff and astro as well. I shan't elaborate cos it'll never end. Moreover, there's tons of stuff i need to do, like cleaning my room, organising my com and cupboard etc... Then there's term paper to do too. See, it's never ending.
Think i just can't rely on my own to stay up at night, gotta start drinking coffee to stay awake at all cost. I always tell myself just 'pia' a bit more and it'll all be over. So must persevere...
Other fronts, let's just say i'm keeping cool, focusing my attention on studies for now. Gotta go study liao...

WHAT IF THIS WAR COULD END TOMORROW,
ISN'T IT WORTH FIGHTING FOR?
ISN'T IT WORTH DYING FOR?

Today's test was alright, more survivable than CA1. But then again, preparation is not complete. Slept more than i study lor. Anyway, I managed to get the main points and scrape through. Was lucky they didn't test the details.
Anyway, Astro going overdrive again. But really good to see everybody working and going on schedule. In hall, comms are closing liao, so can really start mugging. Activity also on a low right now, so better start settling my own stuff.
As I was saying, first thing is to clean up my room. Sort out a few things, rearrange here n there, then it's full throttle all the way liao.
On other fronts, i think everything is just a phase. Maybe it was the hype and all, the stress and loneliness you get, and how all these can just come together at the right time to make u feel for something. Has it gone, we'll never know. Will it stay, only time will tell.

THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE

Well,
Things went quite smoothly today, not so rush cept for the morning, and yet not so slack until the mood to work is lost. Maybe is cos of what's to come and know that time is against u that u wanna push ahead. Finished my homework that's due on Fri. Fri also got test. Guess today's my only really free day to focus on studying, so better work then. Was in those working mood tonight, and boy the feeling of completing ur work is satisfying.
Also started on Project Recovery, basically keep a soft copy of my journal entries on the other journal. I don't wanna lose all my hardwork. Took my months to type that. After that, that journal is for all the lost letters - journals that i've written on pieces of paper and are left around to rot, with no coherence with each other. Then here will be my current one, where I'll try to share with everyone what I'm doing. I'll try to set up a photo website after Recovery, then my life will start to get more interesting.
I'm beginning to think it's the stress that makes me wanna get attached. When I'm not stressed, I feel and remind myself that it's good to stay single and be free. Like right now, totally different from last week, or a few days back. Nonetheless, i some how feel more relaxed, dunno what got to me the last few days to make me feel that way.
Tomorrow should be another cool day, slow and steady all the way. I seem to get into a rythm now. Hope it stays that way. I like things constant, but change is always the only constant. After that, all hell will break lose again, but at least u are prepared now.

I'll try this but I really wanna catch enuf sleep.

Truth is what we all seek,
but it's always behind a veil.
Only when we have the strength,
the will, the courage,
can we push the veil aside.

But yet truth can sometimes hurt.
Who it'll hurt, the truth knows.
There can more one truth,
or a bigger truth.
A half lie, is it half true?

I'm at a crossroads,
where my friends have not seen,
I don't know whether to bring them here.
Or to show them the road I take.
There is nothing wrong here,
just what decisions to make.

At a crossroads with a truth in a veil.
Unmask the truth to see the crossroads,
and it will pave to way to what you feel.

THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE

Just when u thought your long day couldn't get worse...
Woke up late, no time to do tutorial, just printed it and went for tutorial.
Next thing is, bus broke down, already late for tutorial.
Then now don't even know what tutor is explaining, except for some things that I already learnt in JC.
My prediction later? No lunch, late for lectures, sleep in it, then at night eogm sure like zombie one.

I'll be back.

As expected, a quick lunch, almost late for lect, slept a bit, very drowsy. Then my lect end at 6pm, just in time to go training. Went for run with swim team, rush down for dinner, had a quick bath, then straight to eogm. Answered a few qns, some of which really got me thinking, then elected in. Was basically the procedure that was long and tiresome, but necessary.
Anyway, kinda tired. Almost free day tmr, cept for tut at 8 then lect at 4. Oh, the astro booth from 12-2, but it's nothing lah. Gotta start studying liao, finalise all other stuff, tie up loose ends before we start serious studying. I can feel the pressure coming on liao.

THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE

Man, things are starting to pile up high liao.
Today was just preparation to what's to come tomorrow. Basically started the day slow with lectures. Went to Giant to buy stuff and then it's another busy night ahead. Good thing is that my GEM lect was the first time in this lect I stayed awake all the way.
At night, it was the SWOC rally, and boy was I busy answering qns here n there. Thankfully, they were roughly the same, so tomorrow got some confidence liao.
Besides that, it's the long day ahead and the week that worries me. There's lab report and tutorial to hand in on Fri. Fri also got test. There's also the SWOC elections and the astro money collection and booth manning thing which has to be done by Thur. Then there's blk comm stuff to settle with the lvl and also the halloween preparations. Better mobilize my whiteboard again.
On to other things, remember the quote I copied my fren from? He i spoke to him and he quoted another of our fren, which really set me thinking. In a brief summary, it's whose heart u wanna break, hers or yours. U have to read the full quote to really understand what I'm saying, but it was typed on msn and it's gone liao. But then again, on that very same night, which was just now, I've seen things that may more or less confirm some things which have bothered me for some time already. Some how, I feel better now that I know something more. At least I can now put my head down to study and not be bothered. As for my trusty old fren, I think what we said this evening was already pointless. The situation has changed liao.
Wah, can't believe I type so much loh, gotta go and study liao, if not no time...
Before I leave, a SOP I should try to uphold.

In just one night,
just when I want answers,
just when I want to accelerate things,
things take their course and reveal themselves.

In just one night,
just when all seems a blur,
it is all now almost clear.

Just like puzzle pieces on a board,
all falling into place,
all seamless and true,
it sure really struck a chord.

Again as usual, no time.
With what I have to do, I'm scared there's no time to study for the final exams, espeacially after the grades from CA1. But then again, with what I have been doing, since this is the final leg, I should just go all the way and give my all.

Do I have the strength?
Do I have the stamina?
Do I have what it takes to run with time?

Is time always quicker?
Or are we on par?
Even when we're faster, we'll let to catch up.

Feel good feeling today...
Actually wanna study today, everything is like conditioned for it. But then again, heck, better enjoy one gd day before all the real mugging begins. Besides, I can always burn the night away.
At least for today I've accomplished one thing - to dive correctly, without my goggles coming off. I used to be able to do it, but now the same problems came back again. I tried to run away from it, but it was useless. So I tried diving from the pool first instead of the platform. It works on gaining confidence and also practice makes perfect. Well, it worked? Today, i could do sprinting from the platform with the rest of the guys. Felt good, along with the morale boost. Hope to keep it up.

THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE.

Greetings,
Read one of my friend's blog today. He just left for overseas to study. During the period where he couldn't contact us, which was about 2 weeks since he flew off, he made a blog using word on his laptop. So I was reading when I stumble upon something which I'd always wanted to say but couldn't put to words. Well, as clever as he is, he put it to words. Exactly what I was thinking. Here's roughly the quote:

'I am starting to get lonely here. Starting to understand what my friends are trying to tell me about getting attached in a foreign country. There’s a tendency for people of the same country to mix together. That leads to interaction which can sometimes breed love. The feeling just comes sometime and I feel compelled at times to want to make it happen. As much as I like that feeling, certain factors are not perfect and the relationship will not be successful. It’s a pity sometimes when almost everything fits nicely when you realise that one factor just is not rite. I am disappointed but I think I will be more disappointed if I start one and have to break it later. '

I feel something like that right now, dunno whether to cross the line or not. Is it fear or is it not.
As I would always put it, be contend with what you have. Do not risk throwing everything away.

A penny for you thoughts??

THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE.

Alas,
I can finally sit down and type a decent blog. There's still things to do, but gotta relax a bit first.
As for today, handed in all my lab reports, went for SS tutorial, bio lab then lecture. Overall, didn't sleep much in them, which was good.
Anyway, hall life in general is very busy but is sure hell lota fun. Somehow, I all of a sudden can't say anything, or rather, don't know where to start. How about this, maybe I'll get a list out and then I'll discuss them one by one. However, u gotta gimme some time cos project rewind is still underway.
So far, I feel that what I wanted in hall and what I had hoped for is the same and I'm happy that I worked for it. But yet, somehow, when u wished for something so much that when it is right in front of you, you think twice and push it away, knowing that regret is better than knowing the truth.

THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE

This time, I'm really cutting the fine line. It's really the last resort that I have to do this. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. Most cases, all hell breaks lose. But then again, you get the adrenaline rush. Not much time for now, gotta cut corners...

On a point of no return,
but yet to return what I once was.
Decisions have to be made,
in haste or not,
many are to be done quick.

THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE

Finally, a day where I can take a breather, collect my thoughts, and start things again. To finish off what I haven't do actually.
Anyway, nothing much. Just keeping this blog alive and kicking. More stuff ahead, so gotta get go sleep and hope it'll pay off.

THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE